"Where do I begin hmm? It's been a full month since I've posted anything near here. Let's just say that it's been a pretty wild and complicated ride. I've been up, but mostly down. I got laid off from my job because of my health issues, and I'm trying to figure them out. Meh, I went in for blood tests this last Monday to see if I have a heart disease... Lovely. I got kicked out of my place of living, and now I'm living with a group of my friends here in Calgary, and I just moved in last night, so I'm feeling pretty tired. My chest has just felt so heavy lately... And it just feels like I've been riding on my own pain by myself for so long... It's starting to get very, VERY annoying." He laughed out loud. "Oh well..."

He took another breath, "I'm not sure where I am in my Love life, it's a very complicated buisness now-a-days. Seems like no one is sure of anything now, it's all 'half in, and half out' right now. Psh... I'm just going to sit here in the middle of the stream like the rock I've always been, and whom-ever wishes to cling to me for safety can, and when they're done, they can just let go of me. It's pretty easy, or it must be. It's all that's ever been happening to me lately." He sighed.

"I'm going to take a big break from any work whatsoever so that I can rest, relax, and just take it easy, because my body has been speaking to me in languages that I don't like, and it isn't happy. The work that I've been doing has just been killing me. I've been breaking my back, and putting so much tension on my chest, that if I didn't get laid off for medical reasons, I'd probably have a heart attack or something. Meh, it's no big deal, but I'd really actualy like to stay alive, oddly enough."

"I'm glad that I have friends like my friends here... I probably would have had to move back to Saskatchewan if I didn't have them to take me in. So now I live in a nice house in the south of the city, in a really awesome neighborhood that reminds me of Sarah's old neighborhood in Colorado Springs. So, it's pretty nice... But I can't help but feel a sense of, I don't belong here. Then again, I've been feeling like that for nearly two years now. This current is getting pretty intense, and I'm not sure what the future has in store for me... I just wish that things would go easier, I'm so very tired right now."

"Well kiddo's if you guys need me, my cell is 1-403-835-0063, call me at any time if you need me, I've always got it on me, and don't forget to rock, it's always worth it... Peace."

James Kazakoff, aka Chaos Cronos

P.S- "It's easier to run..."